Emulation

This feeling,
A natural rush
A haunting memory, silenced...
You were supposed to die.
To end the ringing inside
My last hope and wish,
To kill this feeling.
-To see you in my dreams...
To-make-them-mine.
The darkness-
---To keep you safe,
To only see light.
Change my memories;
Deep---Keep them closer to me.
Never look for my sins
For none are morals,
Nor bad,
Not even sadness.
My memory full of holes,
A life,
A delusion,
A poison... 
Only to-
Emulate a feeling-
I could never feel,
...But this emulation is real.

//SpasZ SonnE TM